Ooooh so long suckers!!

Just read my blog for the first time in ages, I'm pretty good at this writing lark! anyw ay soooooooooooooo Much has happened over the last year and now 4 months into year two.... opened my own company going well didn't sell the house big shame :( so will sell it soon.... But hey all these things happen for a reason.

So 2011 here we come, Byee for now x

House sales and dates

So lots of offers on the house, so that is going really well. Quite like the house now as it seems to have made me alot of money Phewwwyyyy.

So now where do I live do I stay in area or move on totally new area? who knows I wish I could just know where to go now.

dating ha ha..... why do men put photos on dating websites that are 10 years old, so when you turn up your instantly disappointed? So if your a single male on a a dating website Please please put recent photos up!!!

How ever they were nice dates and I'm glad to be back, will only be a matter of time before Mr right comes along?

Also had the house feng shuied for the impending sale.... and it seems the red sofa I had in my metal area was causing all the bad mouthing, gossiping and such like.

And the broken window in the East was not helping either. so for all those feng shui fans out there do not ever sit in The NE. and make sure there are no fans in the South.... (I have two) which are automatic...... so whoever buys this house I wish you luck and feel a little guilty that you have bought the house of doom!?

Time to move on and out!

Ever since i moved to my oh so lovely 3 bed home in leafy well healed suburb, I have fely unnerved unhappy and alone.... I lived in my last flat for 10 years and wow I had some great times there. I had lots of lovely boyfriends all good men, not to mention great flat mates good jobs, and saw lots of my friends all the time. Lots of good times and happy memories.

As soon as I moved to this house, things were bad! I split with the father of my son, whom I loved dearly and still makes me laugh to this day! There have been ghosts, gossips, bad mouthing, misunderstandings, family upheavals, my son has been bullied, crap jobs, and very bad men headed my way.... its got to the point now where i just dont want to date now as they are all so wrong for me. But my lovely little boy wants a proper family. and its the one thing that seems impossible at the moment.

So i think it is time to move, even though selling up would not be the best thing to do now.... I need to live somewhere I Love.

I think what prompted this was I have been away at the weekend, and when we got home I felt depressed. Its a gloomy house..

Contacting the spirits......

Hi, All good in London today! Went to a pub the other evening and they had a psychic there.... he held my car keys and told me that I had a significant relationship and we had a child, that we are good friends. amicable split etc.... I need to go back to uni and I am a healing person. and there is a man waiting to come into my life! ooh la la apparently he tall and dark lol, at this point I became sceptical! Not my usual type he says, very charismatic and was a bit of a ladies man, he has a child of his own and he wants to settle down. He will reawaken my sense of adventure and the connection we have is amazing!
WOW we just my type he has dark hair....... also I must start doing the lottery as I am very lucky with money (which is true) he added that I must not pick my own numbers.

So watch this space.... I have a ticket and I intend to win! xxxxx

dating for dummies........

So I thought I would give this guy a try..... we have seen each other on and off for a while now. There is something about him that I like, but on the other hand he is a baby! Any way he told me to give up on him as he hasn't got the time or energy to give me the attention I deserve. So I wrote a very gracious e mail back, I think you are right, I have to put my son first, these things take time. I really like you its a shame. But we can not say we did not try. good luck I hope we can be friends.

Turns out he couldn't come and see me that night and scared I was going to dump him again, he thought he would do it first! I am thinking this is possibly not the man for me as he is a child in disguise of a 34 year old man... and lets face it a bit of a sap? A real man would have called and said listen dear i'm exhausted I would like to spend more than a couple of hours with you so lets make it another time? Love etc etc.... Honestly, last time this happened I asked to call me when he had grown up a bit. Clearly he has not. Yawn

Strange dreams

I have had several strange dreams recently..... The last one was about dogs. I sat in an armchair with a blood hound by my side he was a lovely dog and i was happy. In the next room there was a small angry white dog who when i tried to stroke him, Bit me!!

This apparently means i am happy with who I am and my status in life I have good values, and am loyal, faithful and protective. the white dog represents Unfaithfulness and that someone is trying to deceive me..... hmmm well I have my suspicions as to who that is. we shall see.

Going away for the weekend with my dear friend for a bit of a shindig in her home town by the sea! My son is off to his dads to spend the weekend with his baby sister who he love very much and says he misses her terribly! ahhh very sweet boy I have.

Then he asks me " Mummy when are you going to find a nice man and have a baby?".

For you my son, whom I will do anything, I am going to start dating again and find me a nice man! xxx

Its been a while.....

It has been a while since my last blog.... I went to Australia over Christmas and new year, great time! So lovely to see my very best friend and just hang out. I really Missed my son at first and felt so guilty about not being there for him, the time zone was impossible to call before bed time.
The break did me the world of good, its amazing how quickly I got into the pace of life without my normal responsibilities, school etc... lovely to be care free again. But there was a nagging feeling that I was missing something. when I arrived home my son looked at me like I was just anyone, oh dear i thought have I gone too far this time, he slept in my bed for quite a few nights and I was so glad to be home. A sudden realisation that he is my anchor the only person who keeps me grounded. I was happy to get up and do the school run, pick up dirty washing, took such pride in waking up and seeing his lovely face. I'm not sure why resented these things before. Sometimes you don't know what you have until its gone.